Sometimes i feel so unappreciated. Feels like i've done alot for him yet he takes things for granted. Today he said something that left me shocked and hurt then i just kept mum throughout the night. I only voiced what i felt and yet he had to say that to me. Hai.. Sad la. Dont ask for opinions if you're not going to recieve it with an open heart. Dont even try. Pain in the ass at times.
Guess i've been giving in too often, to an extent where when i stand on my own ground, he says i changed. ARGHHHHH! Frustrated. I feel like screaming at him but then again it doesnt get things across like what i wanted. Men are self centred, egoistic pathetic suckers.
I was so happy earlier on.. Now it's ruined.
Piece of shit.
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Sunday, March 25
@22:50
my hamster died.. so sad. i thought he was sleeping but upon closer look, he wasnt breathing anymore. i called shaun straight away and started crying. he's been with me for almost 2 years already. i took care of it since he was very very young. i knew he was dying soon when his fur started dropping late last year but i never realised i wasnt prepared for it at all until today when i saw it lying there motionless. it's so sad.. i dont want to keep pets anymore. = (
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Tuesday, March 13
@20:16
Mummy got me a key today! We went to choose it together at the jewellery shop. It's white gold embedded with small diamonds. = ) So fast i'm turning 21. Thinking back, my life have been smooth sailing, and i appreciate that.
Screwed up some things at work today.. Luckily it was solved. Phew.. Been a long day! Time to watch some tv and play with my hamsters.
signed off
Monday, March 5
@19:26
Saturday i watched "Pursuit of Happyness" and during many parts of the movie, tears were welling in my eyes. People do catch that movie because it's really a booster and would set you thinking about life. *thumbs up* I was so engrossed in the plot that i could feel his disppointments and helplessness. Tear jerker.
Before that we were watching Man Utd vs Liverpool soccer match. Though am not a soccer fan, but i dont hate watching it too. I caught the whole first half of the match, but during half time i fell asleep. Best part Shaun didnt even know i'd fallen asleep and was talking to me when 2nd half started. Only when i didnt move or reply at all then he'd realised i was sleeping. Haha..
I've put deposit for my bachelor programme! Doing a double degree with Murdoch Uni majoring in Marketing & Management. 16mths crash course commencing in May. 3 lessons a week, 7 - 10pm. Excited yet scared because i've lost touch with studies for a yr le plus now i'm working some more.. *cross fingers*
2 weeks to my 21st birthday! BBQ would be on 16th march (friday) I'll be sending invitation via sms soon. Must come ok?!
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